Sharks and Sociopaths

I haven't really been in the mood to blog lately. It's been a pretty shitty year so far. I'll be glad when this court stuff with my father is over. I know it's not good to hate and I've never really *hated* anyone before, but if he suddenly died or something I am pretty sure I would just feel relief. How can one person be such a horrible human being? I really thing that he much be an actual sociopath. How else can you not care that your ENTIRE family hates you. The only family that still talks to him is his mother that he has always hated and his sister that he has always hated and always referred to as a bitch and a whore. All of his kids hate him and I'm pretty sure all of his grandkids do too. His great-grandchildren probably would too, but he's never met them...I doubt he even knows their names. He can't remember Andrew's name...he refers to him as Bubba's little one and he doesn't know how old I am.

Anyhow, enough of that crap. I went to the beach this weekend. It was a really great weekend for the beach. It was only a yellow flag and lots of surf. There were plenty of surfers out. That is one thing that I have always wanted to do...learn to surf. However, I am a giant chicken shit. I am scared to death of getting bit by a shark...drowning would suck too, but I'm more scared of the creatures below the surface...they should have never came out with Jaws! :)

It's stupid, really, I know. Statistically, your chances of getting hit by lightening is 30 times more likely than dying from a shark attack. Bees, wasps, and snakes (I think I'm more terrified of snakes) kill more people each year than sharks. And I have a much greater statistical probability of getting into a car accident than getting bitten by a shark. I have a background in statistics and I know all of this, but it still doesn't make me less afraid of sharks. I don't know why I can't just get over it. What makes some people not scared and others scared? Can I get over this? Should I just say "screw it" and sign up for some surf lessons?

It also didn't help that I watched shark week and Florida is the #1 on the list of most shark attacks. I'm trying to be better and not letting things stop me from doing stuff I want to...you never know how long you have and you only live once...well...I guess unless you believe in reincarnation, but that's a whole 'nother topic.

That is all for now. Peace out. :-P